I don't want to go insane, especially since I know I already am. This whole world, in its endless entirety, is covered up with so many secrets. The world doesn't turn because of love; that's a fools notion, especially in todays world. I don't know, but right now I kind of feel like Makavelli was right, even though I've never read makavelli, I've gleaned much from the night I read tunicks entire Xanga. I know I'll feel different in the morning. I'm still an idealist, a fed up one, but one none the less. This world is psychotic just watch tv and youll see it, Buddha.

I want to address is the whole thing about guys with long hair. What is it that makes all the girls who fit loosly into the the same subculture with me? Liking guys with long hair, I dont get it. Are you that shallow when it comes to appearance, because I know guys are even more so but it bothers me, and it has bothered any guy who has had short hair and long hair. Anyone who reads this, and I know thats few and far between, look at the relationship you are in now and if you find that you would break up with whoever you were with if the length of their hair changed dramatically. Look at your relationship and ask yourself am I here because I like how my partner looks, or because I love that person reguardless of anything that has to do with his/her appearance. If your answer was the former, take a cold hard look at yourself in the mirror.

Another thing, what's with all the drugs that have infiltrated our culture in the United States, from Marijuana to Cocaine to Alcohol (yes it is a drug) to X to PCP to GHB and so on? How could you let your selves just go? Do you all care that little about yourselves? Does your life suck that much that you need to do chemicals to give you a temporary high and kill who knows how many brain cells in the process? Is it that important to you people to escape than to actually come face to face with whatever problem led you to the stuff? And you people who say it's recreational are the worst, because not only are you killing your mind but you lie to yourself so much that you don't care to worry about your problems. Be it mental, physical, or emotional, you just want the quick way out. You people I will never understand, ever.

And the whole weight issue thing in America, specifically all the diet foods, everyone who eats diet food is being tricked, and yes even the Atkins stuff is dumb. Yes I said it, and I know I'm not thin either. Let me explain something to you all, diet food is made to make you fat. Why else would they make it, to make you thin so you never buy their product again? Hell no. It's to keep those people in an endless consumer cycle reguardless of mental or emotional rammifications.

They have something to deal with the mental and emotional effects, it's called medication, or pills, or drugs, which is what they truely are, drugs, but they are good drugs, yes? No my friend, they are not good drugs. The word drug has a bad connotation attached to it for a reason. It's because it makes you dependant and messes you up. Have you ever listened to the ads for the drugs they market today? Listen to the side effects. Yes, drugs have side effects, more than they care to list. What all drugs do is to keep you screwed up a little bit here and there, to trick you, to think they are curing you. Look how many of you have ever heard the word cure used in a drug commercial. Never! Infact they go as far to say this is not a cure, and that's the only bit of truth they give you, because if the drug companies made cures they would not make any money whatsoever. You wanna see a cure? Here's what you do, give anyone who is the head executive of a large pharmesutical company cancer, aids, herpes, bird flu, or sars. I gaurentee that with in a few months they won't have the disease.

Say you have heart burn. They will tell you its acid reflux disease and give you either an antacid or a pill. The real reason you have heart burn is because you do not have enough acid, and all of us in chemistry have seen what happens when you have to little acid in a chemical reaction, gass and bubbles and stuff like that occurs. Its the same thing in your stomach. So why would you take something to get rid of even more acid? It's beyond me. So heres what you do for heart burn, drink some vinegar, or sugar filled soda (no diet crap), or eat some lemons or limes. Do something to take more acid into your system and you won't have heart burn.

Heres another thing, cancer is curable. Yes it is, and it doesn't involve any freaking drug either. All you have to do is eat more Alkali foods. The purpose of this is to make your body chemistry non-acidic, because cancer likes to live in acidic environments. So if your body is more Alkali then acidic, you cannot get cancer. And you know what causes cancer? Skittles and M&Ms and diet foods and aspartame (pronounced as-para-tine). Aspartame is in all diet foods. Look on the label for aspartame; it's evil!

First, half of it, as you can see, is Phenylalanine. What is this you may ask? It's what cancer needs to survive. It's what feeds cancer. It helps cancer grow. Some other effects of this deadly chemical which is in everything is that it causes the chemical of embalming fluid to be created in the eyes. It makes it so that you have a deficient memory and a whole bunch of other stuff.

Some people are allergic to Phenylalanine, and God forbid someone is fat and allergic to it because they could die straight away and no one would ever know why they died. How many unexplained medical deaths do you think this caused? It's not like we even have a way of knowing because no traces of anything illegal would ever be found in the blood stream. [http://tuberose.com/Aspartame.html for more info about aspartame.]

Another thing that is important: Don't drink tap water! If you hate it anyway, good for you. Hell, I would even recommend not brushing your teeth with the stuff. Heres the reason: our water systems in America have been fluorinated. Fluoride, which is very hard to spell, is evil. Get this, before our waterways were fluorinated, one test was done on it to see if it actually helped teeth. One test, and guess who the test was run by, the government.

This molecule is so evil and so accepted in today's culture that no pictures exist online of its molecular structure. None, zip, zilch, goose egg! So what fluoride actually does? It doesn't do bull to teeth except make them dull looking. It reacts chemically within the body to make people who drink it more susceptable to indoctrination, and it also causes bone cancer.

Written By: O.J. Docs

Have you ever heard ringing in your ears? It could be much more than you imagine! It has been a frequent reality and friend in my life.

It was the year 1971. Though it was the enlightened age of Aquarius, the hippie movement had grown tired through embattled confrontations with police and government. Both sides were licking their wounds.

I was living in East Concord, NH, with a wonderful family. I was sharing a bedroom with a slightly older man of strength, courage, and heart named Willie.

I was alone listening to my ears ring. Curiosity got the best of me. I decided I would meditate on the sound. I didn't know enough to say a prayer or spell for protection from the unseen. Yet, there was no need to worry. I was in God's hands.

As I concentrated on the sound of ringing, I forced every intrusive thought away. I grew somewhat weary, but fought away sleep. I remained conscious. Gradually, the sound lowered in pitch. It changed from a high whine to a low blur of sound. Suddenly I found myself outside my body in a dark room hovering near the floor beside a bed shrouded with blankets, which hung to the floor. From the bed came the distinct sound of someone snoring his way through sleep.

The stunning clarity of sound unimpeded by flesh made the snoring sound about twice as loud. My lazy eye was straight and free. I could see sharp, focused images without the burden of glasses. I could see slightly better in the dark than before.

I was facing down, thus could see only down and beside. Therefore, I conclude there must still be some form of less restrictive body involved. There appears to be nothing to restrict senses from perceiving. Yet, there are limits. There was direction, memory, consciousness, and thought.

Just as it did occur, it was over again. I was back inside my own physical self. There was no noticeable travel. Excited, I took a great amount of time to actually fall asleep, as I had work the next morning.

I was encouraged by my experience. I yearned to attempt this again. Soon I got my chance. As I lay alone, I once again focused on the high-pitched sound. The pitch lowered, as I fended off any intrusion. It changed from a whine to a hum, to a low tone, then it became voices!

Though the memory has dimmed, this truth still resonates through my mind and heart. There were two distinct voices. Both sounded like adult males. They were discussing a plan to endanger someone. I believe I also sensed a flash of colored light from a short distance in front of me.

I grew frightened. I became restless, and awoke from this reality back to our world. Nervous, I rose to report this disturbing encounter to Willie.

Willie lived a unique story of his own. He was injured in a gas station holdup by a gunshot. He had actually died and come back to life! His consciousness had fought back to physical life from beyond death's door. He had clung to life to fulfill what I believe was my needs and our dreams. He was very special to me for that reason and many more. His personality was positive, assertive, and buoyant when I needed it most.

He taught me that he shared consciousness through an interchange of souls. Willie would fight to regain his breath. Willie's soul would leave and another would take his place. The visit could be from either heaven or from hell. Both planes exist. A spirit from heaven would be a guardian angel, while one from hell would oppose the wishes of heaven. Both could be effective. I made many friends on both sides. I also learned how to send a troubled black angel home by saying, "In God's name go away!"

So the disturbing possibility was that I had listened to two black angels conspire against Willie. I needed to warn him. Willie's nonchalant behavior suggested there was nothing to worry about, and that I should get back to bed. I returned to the bedroom somewhat disbelieving how light Willie took my words of warning and overall experience perhaps, as common to him.

As I had been ignored during my visit and witness, I figured I had not been noticed. Yet, Willie had cautioned me about ever trying this again. He asserted that the soul was connected through a thin, silver cord, which if tampered with, could be broken. Without this connection, I would be as dead as if I had been murdered. Though he had brushed off his own personal danger, I was concerned enough to not continue to experiment.

Apparently the soul exists outside the body both during soul travel and after death. I conclude that the soul is quite capable of bearing witness to both the physical and spiritual worlds.

Strange, though, was the evidence one very dear soul gave to me. As guardian angels assigned to both me and to Willie, Ray and Quasar, or Sar for short, had met on the other side as souls. They fell in love, and both made a couple under the leadership and direction of one known as Jim. Each had their own personality, clouded by Willie's, yet distinct. Memories were also distinct.

Odd was the fact that Willie had actually known Ray as a youth while growing up in Concord. Both were playing together in a sandpit while a bulldozer worked nearby. Catastrophically, the dozer was blind enough not to be aware of them. Ray was tragically killed when the huge machine caught him under it's heavy blade.

Willie and I were visiting Salsbury Beach on a warm summer's day. While Willie was outside playing group games, I spent some time inside racking up games on an old baseball game. In this arcade, I had won about 14 games!

A sudden alarm went off as my machine rang, then deleted each game I had earned, one at a time. In stunned amazement I watched as my ball helplessly rolled out of sight. My head rang! It whined and hummed, also oscillated. I felt warm. Suddenly a voice spoke to me loudly and clearly.

He said my name and that it was Sar! I was feeling bad that I had lost all my games. Sar insisted that there was an emergency and that Willie needed me. He indicated that I could find him as I walked outside. \"Willie needs you. Go to him.\" This voice was within my head!

With worry I walked outside, then down the ramp. I feared the worst. As much a strength Willie was to me, I was Willie's link to calm and sanity. I feared he could be in a confrontation and had to avoid an altercation.

Suddenly I saw Willie. He was at the first gaming table, apparently without trouble. I relaxed a little. Then I told him about what had happened. Willie explained that he had not been alone. We had a near miss at an opportunity to spend some time in the company of another. I was disappointed, yet pleased that there had not been any danger.

Later Sar confided in me that they could employ this strategy of voice alert to provide for both Willie and I if need or opportunity occurred. Unfortunately, it never did happen again.

The memory today stands strong in my heart as proof there is life after death. I am forever grateful to Sar for bringing me truth of the spirit and evidence of the survival of the consciousness after death. I possess a happy heart full of hope and trust knowing that there is a heaven with guardian angels watching over us. I temper my life with caution while being aware of hell and it's impeding direction. I am encouraged to report that neither lasts forever, and that both lead to reincarnation. Please share my best wishes with those troubled souls embodied who would find comfort in the knowledge of an afterlife.

Written By: Gene R. Morrill

Latin Name: Angelica archangelica
Gender: Masculine
Planet: Sun
Element: Fire
Associated Deities: Michael, Sun Gods, & Venus
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The information presented here is for educational purposes only. These statements have not been evaluated by the FDA. This product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease.

It was back in 1969. I was a freshman attending the University of New Hampshire. With my belongings I had packed away some fine green vegetation which had been treated with angel dust.

Boys being boys we got the idea that we should smoke it. Five of us got in a car and drove to a secluded spot on a dirt road facing up a hill. It was early fall with the leaves still on the trees and nightfall had come. There was a street lamp in back of us.

I packed the bowl and lit it. It passed around. Everybody had got a taste of it. Suddenly, Without warning, the car in which we sat appeared to be facing downhill, then uphill, downhill, then again uphill. Gravity had switched, and the street lamp and scenery was changed. The whole world had just flipped us out!

From the front seat came a voice. He said, "Did everyone feel that?" We all mumbled in utter amazement that we did. "Has everyone had enough of this?" Most everyone was in agreement and said yes. We drove back to the dorms new men.

I admit it was me who was thinking to myself, "This is cool. I\'d like to have a little more!"

One thing I had done was to check the clock on the dashboard before, then after the event. It appeared we could've been missing between a minute or two of time. I'll bet there were some aliens out of sight and earshot who were laughing their butts off!

Written By: Gene R. Morrill

Yes folks, extra terrestrials exist and they have created every religion we know today, even buddhism. All are alien created. It makes sense too, think about it.

All religions have some figure who knew something more than other people, and all religions in one form or another have some connections to higher beings. Would it not make sense for aliens to make us what they want us to be. I know people, like Michael Wang for instance, who are so intelligent they don't even see most humans as people, just as stuff thats either smart or not and will end up being form fitted to when they take over the world.

So, would it be really hard to concieve that reptiles evolved faster than mammals and eventually became sentient beings long before mammals did and from space controlled the growth of the human race to where we are today? I know someone, he's a very smart guy named Scott Gordon, he actually did the math for the human race. Technically, according to modern genetic knowledge the rate of mutations which led to us being as intelligent as we are today is the fastest genetic change in the history of science.

Written By: O.J. Docs