Generally, I am an outspoken person who questions authority, opinions and facts, the natural world, and people’s personal philosophies. I strive to know more, to be competent in as many ways as possible. I am a very curious person. When I ask questions, I expect a response that will further my knowledge of the subject. Therefore, I think I have a strong reflectance motivation.

I like to think of myself as a good person who fulfills his own basic needs relatively easy. I also believe that I am able to control certain drives, although it takes some work. I believe I am able to differentiate between what I consider “good actions” and “bad actions.” For instance, I have never drank alcohol or taken any types of drugs because they are actions which might cause me to lose control. Losing any type of control is not desirable to me. I like to know what I am doing and why. And in situations where it is culturally acceptable to engage in such situations, I detach myself from the situation and realize that it is not desirable for me. I believe I am independent of my environment and can make rational decisions outside of its context.

I like to keep things very simplistic. I am very forward and direct with statements. I like people who get to the point quickly and efficiently. I am a simplistic relationship with my friends. I have very few friends who are very important to me. While interacting with these friends, I am exceptionally forward and honest with my statements. When my friend Kacy asks, “Does this dress make me look fat?” I will respond with an appropriate statement about the observation. I do not believe that honesty should hurt a person’s feelings.

However, what prevents me from being self-actualized is that I am not a spontaneous person, nor do I identify myself with other people. I like order and scheduling. I have a narcissistic belief that am better in many areas than the majority of the human race. My pride and confidence in myself boost me to a degree that I believe the majority of the human race is stupid; therefore, identifying with other people and having feelings of kinship is not important to me. And since I think most people are stupid, I unable to have a democratic character structure. I am very competitive and autocratic. In fact, I do not know how a person can be autonomous and independent of the his culture and environment and have a democratic character structure at the same time. To me, they are opposites.

I also believe that I have a strong self-concept. I do believe that I am a person “of love and worth.” I believe people see me as a positive person, who is going in the right direction. I make sure that I am not too emotional involved in something. I am able to control my emotions, so that I am able to make progress and not let failure get in my way. I do not stress over failure or a possible failure in my future. Before I take an action, I do not know if it is truly right or wrong; therefore, I do not stress over my doubts about the outcome. Because of my ability to deal with my emotions and stress, I believe that I have a lot of ego strength. However, since I have a lot of ego strength, I am a very stubborn person. Someone might argue that I am a bit anal retentive, because of my perfectionist ideals. However, I am not a person to hold things in.

Again, I tend to be an outspoken person who is very forward and direct. I let people know how I feel. I do not hold back. If something is bothering or if I think I can add to the knowledge of the group, I will say something. This is why the arena area of my Jo-Hari Window is so large. This leaves my façade and blind spot quite small.

I am a generally extraverted and conscientious person. My openness, neuroticism, and agreeableness traits are lower. I tend to be a big aggressive, especially when I know I am right about something. I also responsible, in regards to school work and studies, and I always so up early for appointments.

Who I Want to Become

I want to explore my creative side of my openness trait. I want to become a more agreeable person, as not to be too aggressive with person. Sometimes I tend to be too forward. Perhaps, I would like my façade area to increase slightly, as to hold back information so that I do not offend anyone. This would allow me to become more of a private person.

Most importantly, I would like to fully become a self-actualized person. This state seems idealistic and the ultimate step. I want to become competent in many fields. I would like to come to appreciate things, especially other people, more. I would also like to develop a democratic character structure, which would allow me not to be so aggressive and authoritarian.