This is a group of some of the poems short stories I have written in the past. Enjoy.

Queen of My FEMA Trailer

Well I met her down at the food stamp line
She said she was fresh from Lydia
And I remember thinkin’ for a levee rat girl
That she looked pretty well dressed

We sat and talked by the red cross stand
I gave her a good luck kiss
And when the line was short enough
She said I have no place to go

So I made her the queen of my FEMA trailer
With the slide out kitchen and the red cross steps
Sometimes she lies and the sherrif comes get her
Damn her black heart and her welfare check

Well a few nights later I bail her out
She's livin with some redneck from Delcambre
She's his name is T'boy and he rebuilds shrimp boats
He's the Forest Gump of the swampland

I whispered honey let's just go to New Iberia
And have some Nutria Rat and listen to Limbaugh
As I walked her to my boat
T'boy was crying "who's gonna feed me?"

I told him this is the queen of my FEMA trailer
With the slide out kitchen and the red cross steps
Sometimes she lies and the sherrif comes get her
Damn her black heart and her welfare check

I said this is the queen of my FEMA trailer
With the slide out kitchen and the red cross steps
Sometimes she lies and the sherrif comes get her
Damn her black heart and her welfare check

She's the queen...
She's the queen...

Insatiable Lust

Insatiable lust
Ephemeral
Bringing confusion and false hope
Empty happiness that doesn't seem right
Love that is unfulfilled
Meaningless
Grown from attachment
The profane relationship never pervails
Scars that heal
Quicker than the slash at one's true heart
But a satible lover
Grown after months
A love pushed aside
And ignored to make room for another
The more favorable of all
Disliked by the lover
Irrationality persists
Maintained by the common balance
Envy arises
Becomes jealously
An unhealthy womb carries them both
The end is indeterminable
The moment is now
And the currently relationship is irrelevant
All that matters is fulfillment
Fulfillment of the true cause
Of friendship that is certain
Free form abandonment
Free from the lust that once plagued
Free from incessant yerning
Call to thee of lover
Lover of the one
Though not right for you
Surely he can be right for someone else
Just not of the one you dispise
The thief
Infiltrating yet another mind
But who is at fault?
Is it your dispicable speech
And your screwd manner
Perhaps your uncontrollable urges
Sending the youth to flee
Like the kids from the bridge
But who knows
Consider yourself lucky
Lucky to have the love of your life
One who will cherish you always
Nothing else matters
Nothing
All are accessories
None of which are necessary
So come out of your darkness
Come into the light
Realize your accomplishments
Ignore the ignorant
You are all that matters
And your true love
The one who has been there since the last leap
He will follow you
Follow you into the depths of your own self-hate
But there is no need to travel that God forsaken path
You realize your priorities
And what is here
You have it all
Nothing else is needed
Especially insignificant lust
An insatiable lust

Sweetie
Dearest friend.
I often wonder how you got that name.
But I hope you have found your way
To an immortal life of bliss
Free of worry
Free of pain
So contradictory to life.
It could just all be a conspiracy
Something to confort us in the event of death.
Truth or not truth
I take confort in it.
In my heart I know you are no longer suffering
Alive and lively you are in heaven
I hope
Thinking about your life
And what might have been.

From the start of the secondary sentence[1]
You were the first to befriend me.
Never knowing about each other's hidden truths
We clicked when we first met.
Years later and worlds apart
You uncovered me
Hiding out amongst strangers
In a strange new place.
Reunited
Our friendship grew
Together we painted the town rouge [2]
The night clubs and the friends
Oh what fun we had
But that fun ended
Our last great party was the start of '05 [3]
And I wonder why you never told me what was going on.
We all have our secrets
But never again did I see your lively face

A month went by and I wondered where you were
Not a call, not a sign
No word from you at all
But then I was informed of your falling
I felt so lost and disoriented
I did not know what to do
I was driven to find you
To see how you were
But in my trips to the city [4]
I could not bring myself to visit
I hung on to hope
Hope that you would make it through
But deep down I think we all knew it was over
It was sad to know how you wasted away
Through so much pain
But I think death brought you peace
I hope at least
An end to all the suffering

I woke up to one morning light
Marched myself to the kitchen
I opened the Sunday paper
As I always do on Sunday morning
And there I saw your name
Your name on the obituary page
I dropped it in awe
I gasped and stared
I could not believe it
But yet I knew it was true
What have I done?
I felt so guilty
Guilty because I had the chance to see you
But I was too scared
Too scared to see you suffering
And too scared to know
Please forgive me my friend.

I attended your wake
I was scared to go in
Outside I waited for 20 minutes
I felt so guilty about not seeing you in the hospital
It was not until I saw a familiar face
Our old mentor
That finally had enough nerver to see you
And even after I was inside
I could not go into that room
I could that bare to see you there
lying in a casket
After seeing you lying there
It too me a minute to approach you
I tried my hardest to hold back the tears
I did not want to show weakness
And there she weapt
Our old mentor
And I knew what she felt
The loss of someone we knew
Someone we were connected to

I did not attend the funeral
You know church wasn't my thing
But I should have gone
I don't know why I did not go
I was suppose to
I guess I just could not do that either
So I have many regrets
I regret not telling you how good of a friend you were to me
There is so much I want to say to you
Maybe you are up there
Up there somewhere with the angels
And you see what is going on down here
If so
You know that you are special
And sadly missed
I wish I knew where your body lay
Just a place of closure for me to see
Your final resting place
Yet another way I have failed you
Please forgive me my friend

I take comfort in knowing you lived a full life.
It may have been short
But you lived life for its worth.
Carpe Diem! [5]
You seized the day
Never looking back
Or having a second thought of what one night of fun may bring.
Always on a mission
To find that special someone
Even if only for a night
The effort itself was an adventure.
You lived each day as if it were your last
And you died by that stance
I have no doubt.

Sweetie
What else can I say?
I miss you buddy.
So much fun we had
Looking for our next conquest
But there is one thing that will remain with me forever
Over a year ago
You compelled me to date someone
That someone ended up being my true love.
Feburary 21, 2004
A date that will be special to me forever
It was the first time I looked at my love in a new light
And in that light I saw love
I can never thank you enough.
If it were not for your suggestion
I do not know where I would be.
I am indebted to you forever.

I can not bring myself to erase your number
There it sits programed in my phone
And everytime I press C
Your name is the first to come up
I just can't erase it
It would be like erasing you from my life
And I never want to forget you
I never want to forget who you where
And what you meant to so many people
So there it sits
Not just another number in my index
But a memorial to you
Weird I know

From your death I have learned
Live life to its fullest.
Ephemeral [6]
What is here to day may be gone tomorrow.
So I end by saying
I love you man.
You were one of my closest friends
I hope you have found peace
Found what you were looking for.
Rest in peace my friend.

Footnotes

1. Westgate High School: "secondary" for high school and "sentence" because at the time I thought it was the most dreadful time in my life.

2. Went out in Baton Rouge but specifically speaking of the night of Saturday, Feburary 21, 2004.

3. New Years 2005 was the last time I saw my friend.

4. New Orleans: My friend was at Tulane Medical Center downtown and I had been to the French Quarter twice and did not go to the hospital.

5. Carpe Diem: Latin for "Seize the day."

6. Ephemeral: Lasting for a markedly brief time.

If You Only

Once in a beautiful dream
How extravagant and flamboyant you seem
Through the darkest night
You brighten it like day
Even when you are dull
And don't ever be afraid to call
For I am always here to hold your hand

No matter how much I clown
I hate to see you frown
Only you are easily distracted
And all you do is dream during the day
Unlike I, who is so confused
Your strenght you always seem to prove
For you are almost perfect in every physical way

I doubt every night
I will see another day
But you are my shelter from the rain
And in my heart, you will always reign
For you, I would give my last breath
And for every beat of my heart
I will always love you

For an eternal flame can not burn as long
As long as my heart hungers for you
More than a friend
And more than a lover
It is a love that runs deeper than all the world's oceans
And my heart will forever and ever
Belong to thee

When I close my eyes
I hope to see your face
But that always isn't so
Since I rarely see you sometimes
We are separated by love
And bonded by a long friendship
I forever will love you in every which way

But if you leave before I
I would be as a cattle
Who strayed from the herd
Grazing through desert sands
And find nothing but death
Even though my logic tells me different
I will only hope to see you shortly after

In a life beyond this one
Which would probably be dark
For we have not been angels
But I am not afraid to embark
For I would miss you more than the deserts miss the rain
See, I could never live without you
And I shall never try

You are my sun
And she is my envious moon
With your light shining down on me
You burn the surface
And sometimes your get under my skin
Cooking my nevers slowly
But I love you no matter how annoying you are

Deep within your eyes I see
You truly have love for me
For eyes are windows to the soul
And your soul is so passionate
My love for you will never die
And if I shall go missing
It is because I am in pursuit of you...

I Love You

"Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said I love you..."
- - - - - - - Selena's "Dreaming of You"

As I lied awake that long lonely night
I thought of you, in all your glorious might
It is here and now that I have never felt better
I have never love my life as much as I do today
And I would to thank you for the privallege in this letter

Love is the most complicated of all emotions
It causes anger and fear
Even resentment and remorse
It leads to all our insecurities
But we all strive to have it

I love you
Unlike anyone I have loved before
And I know you love me
Which makes this all seem too unreal
But it is

You have lifted me up
And set me free
And I want to spend the rest of my life with you
For I know I will never have love as sweet
Or as precious, ever again

Take my hand for all time
And seal our commitment forever
This is what I want
I know this now
I want you forever

I know I have made mistakes
Some I truly regret
All I have learned from
And throughout this past year
I learned, for myself, you are the one for me

Emerge from the closet doors I want
To seal our love forever
Never to hide again
But do not feel obligated to do the same
As you have grown beyond the years of ween

I love you
That is all I wanted to say
But such a powerful word must be explained
And I say it from my heart, this you know
Be mine forever and ever... evermore

One Step at a Time

Your silhouette was amongst me
I never saw it
Your presents was vague to those before me
I never knew

I heard your voice
From then on I knew
Together we would have something special
Between me and you

So confused and dismembered
We sought each other out
Finding common ground
In a God forsaken place

I fell in love
Something I never felt before
And when I first saw you
I dreamt to press your lips against mine

We lasted for a while
Nearly a lifetime for me
Then the hardship came
And we both had to face the rath

We were seperated by distance
And brought together by luck
You would have considered it faith
While I considered it chance

The arguements never stopped
When I thought I found new love
I abandoned you
And I will never forgive myself for that

You were my true love
I see that now
I have loved and lost and loved again
Only to lose you

You see me as a good friend
As I do you
But I see you as more
And I confessed it to thee

I speak of love
Here with me
While I do care much
It seems it is not right for me

I wish you were here
Right by my side
And we could walk this life together
One step at a time...

Probably Not

I long for the night to come
Its a time to be with those I love
But every night I leave angry
Angry because I am looked down upon
I am frowned upon
I try not to aggravate a situation
Just seems everyone treats me like shit
I cry myself to sleep
I suffer from the pain
My stomach aches
My life is but a lie
I am miserable
Do you know what it feels like being alone?

Everyday
I can not wait to leave
A better life awaits me out there
Tonight I said goodbye
I hugged my friend
I walked away as the garage door closed behind me
I don't think they realize they will never see me again

What a world this is
Shunning many
No one seems to care
Does anyone care?

If I die who would come?
Would anyone come?
Probably not...

My Friend

Friend
One know I've known for a while
I know what you think
And what junk you keep in your pile
And your favorite drink

Swain
My favorite mistake
The love I feel for you
With everything at stake
And people never ask who

Assay
My experiment
Tried something new
I made a commitment
To only you

Apprentice
My student
Who has much to learn
Who thinks hes independent
The envious fire in you burns